Hey Guys! I'm gonna be changing a bunch of the names. I'll make a set that has who is who. This chapter is the same though. Tell me what you think <3
 
I walked in the dark until I realized I was at Jack's. I jumped onto the roof and knocked on his window. He opened it and looked at me kind of puzzled. I would probably look at someone the same way if it was eleven o'clock and someone knocked on my window. I kept walking. I didn't even know where the hell I was going? I just walked in the dark. I looked up " Scarlett what are you doing here?"
" Just passing by." I smiled as I said it. I knew it was not believable because no one is just passing by at eleven o'clock. He came onto the roof, shut his window almost fully then sat down next to me.
" What's really going on?"
" The guy who shot my dad is being released. And I can't do anything about it. "
" I thought you were trying to find evidence against him."
" I did. Then we were forced to stop. We had to stop the investigation." I reached into my purse and grabbed my lighter and the pack of cigarettes. "Want one?"
" Yea thanks. How did you get these?"
" The guy at the drug store is an idiot and he doesn't check my age."
" Wow he's easy. I used to have someone get them for me."
" Does anyone know you smoke,'' I asked.
" No. I don't really tell people because they look down on it. It's just a nerve calmer." I knew exactly what he was talking about. That's why I smoked. It just calmed me down. I lit his cigarette then I lit mine. We sat there in silence for a while. Then I laid down and looked at the stars. They were so bright and beautiful. It was amazing just sitting there in complete silence. It was like words didn't need to be said. We could almost communicate without even uttering a word. With other people it is awkward when this happens. We always have to talk to make it comfortable. But now with him. He laid next to me and we finished our cigarettes.
The burning sensation filled my throat. It hurt but at the same time gave an amazing sensation. We just laid there doing nothing. All of the sudden he sat up. It kind of startled me. He jumped into his room and shut the curtain, and turned the light off. He probably had a reason so I just sat there for a minute longer. I moved away from the window so if someone looked out of it they wouldn't see me.
After about five minutes the window opened and he walked onto the roof one again. '' I'm sorry. If my mom saw me on the roof she would have a heart attack. "
" It's cool. My mom would have done the exact same thing." My mom saw me pop the screen and flipped out on me. And told me I would fall and die. I've done it a million times and am I still alive. I am, well almost.
" I saw on your profile you like to skate. Do you know any good skate parks?"
 
" Oh yea definitely. There's a good one of Main Street."
" Really? Thanks! Do you want to go skating after school tomorrow?"
" Yea that would be awesome. But what about Hailey?"
" She can come. " He had no idea what he just said. She can't even get on a board. She will come and make a fool of herself.
"Um sure it's just." I didn't want to tell him.
" I know she can't skate at all. We hung out after school and I started skating. She watched me and told me I was really good. Then she wanted to get on the board. She fell and sprained her ankle. "
" Oh so you know."
'' Yes I know." I looked at my phone and saw it was one on the morning. I had to leave my mom would flip if I missed another day of school. " Jack I got to go. "
" I'll walk you home." He was such a gentlemen.
" You really don't have to," I really wanted him to but then again I didn't.
" I'm going to. I'm not going to let you walk alone in the dark."
" Okay whatever you say."
He grabbed his shoes and jumped of the roof first. He reached out and grabbed my waist and helped me down. I landed inches from his face. We looked at each other for a moment then we looked away. We started walking towards my house. It took us about five minutes because I only lived a block away. We got to my house and I turned to him to say goodbye. " Thanks again."
" No problem." I kissed him on the cheek and then turned around. He gave me a boost up to my roof. I waved to him. I waited until he faded into the darkness to go inside. My window was unlocked so I opened it and walked in.
I turned my light on and went and sat on my bed. My phone died so I put it on the charger. I got into some sweats and an old tank. I got onto my computer and logged onto my Instagram. I had some activity and as I looked through it Jack had tagged me in a few pictures. One of them was at my game when I shot a goal. Then the other was the picture we took at the beach. We were on the pier and we had someone take a picture for us.
I really liked the picture so I saved it and put it as my screen saver. I knew Hailey would get mad but at this point I didn't care. Jack and I were close so she would just have to deal. I scrolled through my feed. I heard my phone beep and I got a text. It was from Jack ' Got home. See you tomorrow!'
After that I decided I needed to go to bed. I turned my computer off, and did a few last things. Then I fell into a deep sleep.
My alarm went off and it was super loud. I looked at the time and it was six. I got up and showered. I got out and dried of my hair. I decided to add colored ribbons in my hair and then French braid it. I grabbed my favorite ripped skinny jeans, and a simple black tank with a galaxy cross on it. I put some light make up on. I grabbed my bag and vans. I ran down the stairs to see my mom and John drinking coffee in the kitchen. " Morning," I say with a smile.
" Morning Honey. How'd you sleep?"
" Good thanks." I grabbed a food bar and went into the hall closet to grab my board.
" Why are you taking that?" John asked me. What does he think. I'm going to take it for a pillow. I'm taking it so I can ride it what else. I swear he is an idiot.
" I'm going to the skate park after school with my friend."
" I don't like the fact that you hang around guys so much. You're a girl and you should hang around other girls," My mom told me this every time I said I was going skating. I'm her only daughter and she wants me to be girly and like to wear dresses. Okay that is just not going to happen and that is a promise.
" Mom girls are annoying, catty, and prissy. I'm just not like that. And guys are a whole lot better friends because they don't backstab you. And why did you assume I was going with a guy?"
" Because none of your girlfriends are skaters. And whenever someone comes over to go skating with you it's a guy. You need more girlfriends." I'm not seeing the problem with this. About all of my friends are guys. And about all of my guy friends are just like me. My mom grew up only hanging out with girls so she wants me to.
" Mom I ain't about that life. I like who I'm friends with. I don't need anyone else.''
" And not to even mention what you are wearing. What the hell is that?" She looked disgustedly at my ripped jeans. She looked at me like I didn't know how to dress.
"Seriously this is cute. It's my style."
"On what planet." This one obliviously! She just doesn't know style. Well she does just not mine.
" You're not going to school like that right?"
" Well of course I am. That's why I put it on." I looked at my phone and it was time for me to go. "Bye!" I yelled as I ran out of the door.
I jumped on my board and rode to the bus stop. I got there right as the bus got there. I jumped on and got to my normal seat in the back. I sat down and we stopped on the next bus stop where Jack was at. He came on with his board. I moved to the window seat and he sat down.
" Hey!" I said.
" Hey! How was your morning?"
" Good until my mom lectured me on how I need to hang out with more girls and that my outfit looked disgusting because of the rips and she doesn't like the galaxy stuff. "
" Wow ha-ha! That's funny. I like your outfit it's different. Not a lot of girls could pull it off." His laugh was adorable. He really did know his stuff.
" Yea I know. I bought the shoes with the shirt cause they matched. My mom was not so happy when I came home with them. I've learned to just not care. She wants me to be like her and dress like Hailey and Taylor. I told her I ain't about that life. Her mouth dropped. I left before she could lecture me on my grammar and my jeans." He started laughing so hard. I started laughing to. We couldn't stop laughing and I have absolutely no clue why. We just couldn't. It was one of those moments you hold onto for a rainy day and remember how happy you were at that specific moment. It's truly an amazing thing.
We got off the bus and we walked to my locker.
" Can I put my board in here?"
" Yea of course." We put our boards in the locker and waited for Hailey. She came and she has a brace on her ankle. Jack went and hugged her." I'm sorry about that baby."
" Its fine. It doesn't hurt as much anymore. Oh hi Scarlett."
" Hi are you okay?"
" Yea I'm fine. Is it cool if Liam and Taylor come with us to the skate thing?" Great! Liam was going to pull some jack ass stunt. I wasn't going to worry about it. Jack was going to be there so he may not pull something. Well it is Liam I'm talking about so anything could happen.
" Yea it's cool with me. How about you Scarlett?"
" Yea sounds fine."
" Great I'll tell her. I got to go to class. Bye. " She kissed him on the cheek and then went to class. We decided to walk to History together. " Can I be completely honest with you?"
" Of course." What was he going to say. I was kind of scared of what he was going to say. He pulled me over and looked me right in the eyes.
" I really like you. I mean a lot a lot like you. I think I may love you. You're so amazing and beautiful. I can't even hold it in anymore. It's everything about you. How you act, dress, talk and I just like you for you. I love you so much. You are the only girl I have ever felt like this about. It's fine if you don't feel the same way, I'll understand." I could not believe he had just said that. He had no idea that was exactly how I feel. I put my arms around his neck and kissed him. It was perfect. It was just an amazing moment.
" Does this mean you feel the same way?" He said with a grin.
'' Yes it does. It means I feel the exact same way." His smile got super big. His blue eyes sparkled. It was the happiest moment. We stared each other in the eye with big smiles. He was so amazing. He was so much better than any other guy I had ever liked. His smile, his eyes, his warmth, his existence, him. Everything about him was amazing. He was absolutely perfect.
" What about Hailey?"
" I'm going to break up with her. I can't love her. I don't want to lead her on."
" Okay." We walked to history. We sat in the back with the rest of the of the group. We continued with American History. I couldn't think straight. I'd look over at him and he would already be staring.
It was amazing to feel loved by someone.
I haven't had this feeling in a long time. Is it too early for me to hope this lasts a long time. History flew by, as did all the other classes. He broke up with Hailey during lunch. She didn't care at all. He told me she guessed it was because of me. She said she could already tell because of how he looked at me. Then later she told me that she was really happy for me and that she knew he loved me because when he looked at me he would just stare. I was really happy she wasn't mad. But I was really surprised she was actually happy. But I wasn't going to question.
The day was finally over. We went to our lockers and grabbed our stuff and Taylor's mom drove us. We skated for a few hours then we all parted. It was just Jack and I. I had to go to the station to try to fight to keep Martinez in jail. " I really have to go."
" I'm going to come with you?"
" Why? You're going to watch me work."
" Whoever said I was going to watch you work. I'm going to help you of course." I knew he was coming no matter what. There was no point in arguing with him because he was going to win anyways.
" Okay whatever you say. You can come."
" Yay!" Wow he was such a little kid. He hugged me tight.
" You're such a little kid. It's hilarious.''
" Ha-ha. I know I am."
I pulled a cigarette from by backpack and gave it to him. Then I pulled one out for me. I lit them both.
" Thanks Babe!''
" No problem. We just have to finish before we get to the station."
" Okay I will." He put his arm around me as we walked. It was amazing how much we could act like ourselves with each other. We didn't have to act any different. None of my other friends know I smoked. To them it's like a disease to be an individual. You always had to be like someone else. It was absolutely ridiculous. " Why?" I asked him.
" Why what?"
" Why me? You have so many other options. Better options for that matter." He was silent for a minute and you could tell he was contemplating his answer.
" Yes I do have other options. But want to know something?"
" What?"
" They aren't you and that's why I don't like them. You are so unique and different. You are exactly what I'm looking for in a girl. You are the only one I want in my life. And you are the most beautiful I have ever met." That was the sweetest thing a guy has ever told me. I couldn't believe he said that.
" Thank you so much. You're so amazing."
" Thanks. Scarlett it's the honest truth. Everything I said I actually meant. You are seriously the most chill girl. I love the fact that you are unique. You are so independent. You don't need anyone else. I love the fact that you have your own style and like what you like not what others want you to like. There are almost no words to describe you. You could be considered indescribable."
I could feel the tears coming. I tried not to show them. I tried blinking them back but I couldn't as much as I wanted to. They just flowed out of my eyes. He turned to see me crying. '' Baby what's wrong?"
" It's just." I couldn't even talk. " It's just what you said. It was so sweet. And it was exactly what I have always wanted to hear. Thank you. You are to amazing for me." He pulled me in and hugged me. He just held me in his arms. He rested his head on mine and held me close. I just felt so safe. He let me go. " Better?"
" Yes." I said with a smile. I love him so much. He is just too good. He has made me feel more beautiful in a few sentences than Liam could in two years. He made me feel like I was actually worth something. I have never had this feeling before.
We continued to walk hand in hand. His fingers perfectly fit. We finally got to the station . We walked in and went to Gonzalez's office. We walked in and he gave me kind of a look. It said who the hell is this with you? " Hey." I said trying to stop him from saying something stupid.
'' Hey Scarlett. Who's this? " He said with a grin.
" This is Jack, my boyfriend."
" Oh I see." He said smirking. He came and shook his hand. Then he said something I couldn't hear but I knew it had to do something with him hurting me. I'll get it out of him. " Has anything changed?"
" No I'm sorry."
" F**k! They have to be f**king kidding me! This guy killed my dad. He killed part of me to. Shouldn't that be enough to keep him here. " I banged my hand on the desk.
" No it isn't. And part of anyone that knew your dad died. I always think of him as happy. He would walk into a room and it would just light up. Even if you were having a bad day he could always cheer you up."
'' I know, I remember. He never was mad or upset at home. He always just tried to make people laugh. He always knew how to make someone smile. "
" Yes he was. You remind me of him so much. You come into a room and it lights up just like him. You're independent and don't need anyone. That's how he always was. And his best quality was his courage. He was the most courageous man I had the privilege to know. "
My father is my hero. Most people will say their hero is someone who is famous and is going to be remembered. No but my father is my hero. He knew he was going to die and he didn't fun. He wasn't scared. He lived life to the absolute fullest. He never showed fear in front of anyone.
Gonzalez continued, " I wish I could be half as good of a man as he was."
" You are more than half as good of a man of him. You are amazing. You are my father since mine is gone. And I want to thank you for everything."
" No thank you. You are almost my daughter. And thank you for being an amazing blessing to my wife and I." I smiled. I walked to him and hugged him. I let go and realized Jack was still there. I went back to him and he grabbed my waist and held me close to him.
" You two should get going. You should get some sleep. You don't want to be tired for the weekend."
" No we don't. Please call me if anything changes."
" I will. Night."
" Night." We walked out. We went the back way to Jack's house. As soon we were out of sight of the department I let the tears fall and hard. Why does this have to happen to me! I'm a good person. Do I really deserve this?
" Don't cry, baby please don't cry." Jack said trying to comfort me. It didn't help at all.
" I'm going to lose my mom. The last thing that means something!"
" I guess I know where I stand then!'' Jack said pissed off. He let go of me and made a distance between us.
" I didn't mean it like that, I swear." I tried to walk near him but he just moved away from me.
" Please Jack! Please! Don't do this, I'm sorry. I'm not thinking clearly. Please I love you. You mean everything."
" Yea right Scarlett. I can't believe I told you I loved you. Just don't talk to me. You can deal with your f***ed up life alone! " He said walking away from me. Why was I so stupid. I honestly didn't mean to say that. I don't want to lose him. I need him.
I walked home alone. Tears staining my eyes. His cold words filled my head. It replayed my head so many times on the way home. Did he mean it? Or did he say it out of his anger? These questions I needed answered.
I got home and ran upstairs to the bathroom. I locked the door and slid down the door. There was an unbearable pain in my chest. It was as if my heart were actually breaking. He just walked away. And his last words so cold and dark.
I got up and went to the place where my blades were. I grabbed them and sat down. I took the small blade and began to pierce my delicate skin. The blood flowed out of my arm. The release came quick. I carved help into my wrist. The blood came out fast. I grabbed a wrap I had and wrapped it around my arm. The bleeding stopped.
I put the blade back and walked out of the bathroom. I went to my room and sat on my bed.
I sat there for hours just thinking. My mind was racing so much. It was so loud. The demons in my mind kept haunting me. I kept hearing ' Just end it right now. No one will care anyways.' That thought ran through my head a million times. I couldn't bear it anymore. I was ready to die. I went in the my drawer and grabbed my pills. I grabbed the water bottle from my vanity. I was really going to do it this time.

I got there jumped on and paid. I got to the station in about ten minutes. I walked in and saw the chief waiting for me. "Hi Scarlett."
"Hey Chief!"
"You and Gonzalez don't have a lot of time. We have a week left to find something to nail this guy with. If we don't find something on Martinez he will. Well I don't have to explain this to you."
"Yes I know what will happen and that's the worst part. If I don't find something he will shoot my mom and I lose my last parent."
"I know. You always have a family here. All the agents love you."
" I love them all to."
"Well I have to get back to work. Just nail this guy for your dad."
"I can promise you I will." We parted and he went to his office and I went to the evidence room. I looked at the file. I looked at the gun once again and noticed something.
There was a finger print. One that we hadn't checked. This may be what we were looking for. I grabbed it with the gloves and ran to Gonzalez's office.
I opened the door and ran in. He was on the phone. He said," I'm going to have to call you back." He hung up and looked at me hoping I had something.
"I think I got it."
"What do you have?"
"A finger print we didn't catch. All the other prints had alibis with the people who the prints belonged to. This one I just saw. I'm going down to the prison and getting a index finger print off Martinez. "
"Okay I'll tell the chief."
"Thank you!" I gave him a quick smile and ran out of the office. I grabbed what I needed to get the finger print and quickly walked to the prison.
"How can I help you ma'am?"
"I need to see prisoner 70862."
" How are you related?"
"I'm not and I'm in an investigation to keep him here."
" I will need to see some Id." Is he serious. I don't have time for this kind of shit.
"Here ." I showed him my all access pass and he let me through. I walked right to the cell and I saw him there.
He looked at me with cold, dark, evil eyes. He knew who I was. He stared at me a long time. I coldly stared back at him. It was the first time in about six months I had to come to his cell. "Scarlett what brings you?"
"I need a fingerprint," I coldly said. He looked at me unwillingly.
"Why I'm getting out of here anyways."
" Not if I can help it." I got the guard and he got the print for me.
I thanked the guard and was about to walk out when I heard my name being called.
"Scarlett!" I walked back to see him leaning up against the cell walls." You act just like him."
"How would you know?"
"How you walk, talk and demand people is how he was."
"One question."
"Yes?"
"Why'd you do it?"
"I don't know. I was showing my loyalty to the gang. "
"Loyalty meant more than your best friend!" I yelled.
"No my best friend meant more."
"And that's why you shot my dad? Cause he meant more than loyalty. If he meant more than loyalty he would still be here. " I walked out at that point. Nothing anyone could say would make me turn around. I just kept walking. I had to get it so this guy stayed in prison. Anything to keep him here. And anything to keep my mom safe.
This guy had to be kidding me. Telling me his best friend meant more than loyalty. That's a hole load of b*llsh*t on his part. If he even cared about my dad he would still be here today. He would have been protecting and I wouldn't be a cutter. My mom would have never met John and I would be happy. But if my dad was still alive Jack probably wouldn't have come into my life. I guess God really does take people from your life at the right time and puts others in their place at the right time. I guess my dad was taking out of my life for a reason and Jack was put in for another reason. I may never know.
I walked out of the prison. I had the print in my hand ready to get it tested. I walked into the room and the chief and Gonzalez were already there. "Scarlett they're closing the investigation."
"What!" There is no way in h*ll I'm going to let this happen. I just got this da*n print. They must be joking." You guys are just messing with me right?"They looked down and didn't answer. I knew right at that point it was really over. He was going to be free. The man who ruined my entire life was going to be a free man.
" They say he has been so good and not causing trouble so they are letting him go on the original release date. There's nothing we can do. "
"No there's always something that can be done. There is always another option. No way am I letting him out and have him kill my mom!" I could feel tears beginning to form. I had to hold them back I wasn't going to show any weakness. This can't be happening. Why does this happen?
"I know there is but we have to stop. We are being forced. They are letting him go no matter what." Why would all of the sudden they let him go. There had to be a reason.
"What if we can link him to the murder? What happens then?"
"The problem is we can't. Because the case is closed we can't do anything. We can't even finish the investigation."
" No I'm continuing this investigation. He's going to kill my mom. She was n the gang and she testified against him. Please try to keep it going!"
" I fought for you but they declined. It's the end. There is nothing left we can do. I'm sorry."
" We can't stop! We have to keep going. I won't be able to handle the pain of losing to parents."
" I'm so sorry." I just looked down. I can't lose my mom. She's the last parent I have. If she's gone then I will be forced to live with John. I won't be able to live without my mom.
" I'm sorry I have to go." I walked out without another word. I got out of the station and walked to the nearest drug store. I walked in and grabbed a pack of cigarettes. The guy working behind the counter didn't even ask how old I was. He just let me buy them. I gave him the money and left.
I walked out to the back of the store and opened the pack. I pulled on out and lit it. I inhaled the smoke and it burned the back of my throat. It was exactly what I needed at that moment. I sat there smoking. I watched a few people skate by me but no one stopped. I finished my cigarette. And got up.
I stuffed the rest of the pack into my purse and started walking. I didn't know where I was going I just knew I was going somewhere. I didn't really care. I would go where ever my feet took me.

Sh*t! I can't love him Hailey does. He leaned in to kiss me. I began to lean in also. Then I thought of how hurt Hailey would be if she knew I kissed him. I pulled away right before our lips touched. He looked at me puzzled.
" Is there anything wrong?"
"No it's just."
" Just what?"
" It's just Hailey. She really likes you. And you already were going to ask her out.”
" Oh my gosh! I'm really sorry it was just in moment type of thing."
" It's totally fine. I understand." I really wanted to kiss him but I couldn't. We sat there in an awkward silence. Then my phone rang and it was Hailey.
" Where the hell are you and Jack?" She seemed pissy which was a normal routine.
" How do you know I'm with Jack?"
" I saw you to walk to the field. What's going on between you to?"
" Nothing I promise you. "
" Give him the phone," She demanded. What was wrong with her. She was being completely and utterly rude. I handed him the phone.
He told her exactly what I said. There was nothing going on between us. Then I heard him say," Will you go out with me?" I could hear squeals and a yes. Then he told her he would talk to her later and we wouldn't be at school. I didn't know what he meant by that but it calmed her down.
" What do you mean we're not going to school?"
" We're not. We're going to the beach!"
" I don't have my bathing suit and why?"
" Cause we are going to hang out and we're going back to your house to get it." I knew there was no point in trying to argue with him. We walked to his house first. He walked in and came out like ten minutes later.
We talked and got to my house. " Help me up." I said as I put my foot out for him to push up.
" Why?"
" Cause my mom will be pissed I didn't go to school." He pushed my foot up and I got onto the roof. I opened my window and climbed in. I changed really quickly into my favorite floral bikini. I grabbed a bag and some money. And jumped out of the window.
We walked down the street and got a cab. We messed around the whole ride. We annoyed the cab driver so much. Three times she threatened to leave us. We really didn't care we were just having fun.
She dropped us off at the Pier. We walked down the water and were about to run in. We got in and it felt amazing. I fell back onto a wave and I felt so free. We stayed in the water for what seemed forever.
Neither of us wanted to get out but we had. We were both getting hungry and needed food. As we were drying off a little girl came up to us and said, " You guys are really cute together." And ran away before we had a chance to eve respond. It was really funny.
We went to a diner on the pier and ate. We told each other everything. Well almost everything. I didn't tell him about John or my cutting addiction. He told me about his family. We talked about our siblings, parents and anything else that happened to come to mind.
We looked at the time and it was two. We had to be back at the school for him to see Hailey and for me to be at my game at three forty-five. We called and a cab and decided not to annoy the crap out of the driver. " Thank you so much for the most fun I have had in the longest time."
" No really thank you! You're so chill and amazing. It's so much fun talking to you. You actually act like you are intelligent. Unlike my old friends who didn't know anything. You're absolutely amazing and beautiful."
I could feel myself blush. It was really sweet of him. I leaned and kissed him on the cheek. It was cool for a friend to kiss another friend on the cheek right? Well it didn't really matter now anyways. It was over and done. He flashed that amazing, beautiful smile that killed me every time I saw it.
He was so happy. I knew he has a lot of pain but he's good at covering it. We got to school and Hailey was waiting for us. She ran up to him and jumped into his arms. They looked into each other's eyes and then their lips met.
It was amazingly sweet but it also was horrid. I had to watch them be so happy. I could feel my heart begin to break. Piece by piece, bit by bit. I looked at the clock and it was three-thirty. I had to get ready for my game.
" Jack you're still coming to the game right?"
" Of course! Wouldn't miss it." Hailey shot me a glare. I must have ruined their moment. He didn't seem to care. I walked away to get changed. I walked into the locker room and quickly put my uniform and cleats on. I warmed the team up and we began shooting drills.
The time came for the game to start. Because it was a home game we got to start. We immediately got a goal. The game went like that. We'd score they'd do the kick off and they would lose it. We won fifteen to nothing. I ran over to Jack and he hugged me. Hailey didn't want to hug me in fear of my sweat. She shot me another glare when I hugged him.
I knew I was going to get the back the heck off talk. Every time she would date a friend of mine she would be mad because we would hang out. Mostly all of my friends were guys. And most of them at one point she dated. She get so pissed when my friend ( her current boyfriend) , and I would hang out. She said it didn't look good to her reputation to her boyfriend and friend hanging out. It was so stupid.
When I get a boyfriend I wouldn't make it so he could never hang out with his friends who are girls. She gets to attached and gets jealous way to easily. She assumes everything and doesn't give people a chance to tell her what the real story.
She got so mad at me when she dated one of my friends in eighth grade. We were always hanging out and she would get super mad. He would always put the plans he had with her before plans he had with me. We always invited her to come with us but she refused.
Then she began to assume he was cheating on her with me. It was the most catty thing possible. She was so dumb. Whoever the friend was would tell me she would be attached to his hip. And that she was just to annoying and clingy and then they would break up.
I always wanted to tell her that, but I just didn't have the guts to tell her. She would be sad for a few weeks and everyone would worry about her and then she would move on to another guy and the cycle would repeat itself.
I decided to ignore her and be happy we won. I talked to them for a while then decided to go home. I didn't have a ride so I thought I would get exercise and walk home. I walked with my headphones in my ear ignoring everything. I finally got home and didn't want to go in.
I walk in and see my mom taking aspirin in the kitchen. " Hi sweet heart? How was your day?"
" Good. We won our game."
" That's great. Good job!" She was smiling. She seemed so happy.
" You missed it again."
" I'm sorry I'm busy." Oh yea staying home because you had a hangover cause you got so drunk is busy. She never came to my games. She always said she was too busy or her and John had to do something. I got used to not having her there supporting me.
" You know what's coming up right?"
" No what?" How could she forget! It's the anniversary of her husbands' death. That's pathetic. I had to remind her every year just so she would put roses on his grave. I at least go there once a week and put flowers and take the dead ones.
" Dad's death anniversary."
" Don't bring up your father! You know I don't like talking about him!" She was yelling at me.
" Why cause Johns here! You're husband, my father and I'm not even allowed to remind you it's the anniversary of his death. You may have forgotten about him but I haven't. I go to his grave every week. I can barely even get you to go once a year. And you want to know what else is going to happen next week also."
" What!" She said continuing to yell at me.
" Martinez is getting released!"
Her mad expression in her face disappeared from her face. She looked at me with complete disbelief. Her expression told me she couldn't believe that the police were going to let him go. " No they aren't. They can't be he killed a man."
" Dads just a man, not even your husband or my father. And Gonzalez has been keeping me updated on the case. Somehow the evidence was wrong and it wasn't him. So they are releasing him." Gonzalez was my dad's old partner. I would go down the station and he would give me updates on everything happening. Her mouth dropped. She couldn't believe what I had just said.
" He did it. Everyone knows he was going after him. There has to be some evidence."
" Mom there's nothing. They have nothing against him. They are holding him only because Gonzalez and I are determined to find something. "
" Why are you involved? And why was I not told?" She was yelling again.
" We didn't see the need to. I'm involved because it's my father. Him and I go through evidence and are trying to find something big enough to keep him in. We know that if he gets out he will go after you because you were in the gang."
" How do you know that?''
" Because I do and if he finds you he will kill. And that's why we didn't tell you. We needed to keep it between him, the chief and I. We did it for your protection. I can't risk losing both of my parents. " She had tears in her eyes. I looked at the time and realized I had to go the station.
" Mom I have to go. I'm going down to the station. I'll be home late. I have a ride home." I walked up to her and hugged her. I ran upstairs put my jeans on and my police department shirt on. I grabbed my stuff and ran to the bus stop.

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Chapter 5
"Scarlet are you okay?" Said Jack looking at me worried. He had so much concern in eyes.
"Yea I'm fine. Why are you freaking out?'' I said not really understanding what the hell he was talking about. He looks at me like I'm joking him.
" Dude you were just crying and clutching your locket. Are you okay?'' Oh crap now I will have to explain. What am I going to say. Oh yea I'm crying cause my dad was shot by his old best friend. I can't just tell someone that. Even Hailey doesn't know he was shot by his best friend.
Well I should probably make this clear. Before I was born my dad was in a gang and he left because my mom got pregnant and he didn't want me to grow up like that. He left and moved to New York. Well that didn't really settle well with the rest of the gang. They swore they would one day find him and kill him. When he realized that they were back he knew it might be the end.
He wasn't a coward so he never would have run. He was stronger than that. That's why he got me the bear and hugged me tighter on that day of school. He knew he was going to die so he had to say what he needed to. He held on long enough to tell me he loved me and give me a locket that had a picture of us together.
The officer was my dad's partner and has been a dad to me since mine died. He kept his promise and found the guy and got him arrested. The man who shot my dad used to be his best friend. That's why they sent him to kill him so that he could show his loyalty to the gang.
I guess you could say he was loyal to the gang. He shot his best friend. My dad and the man who killed him knew each other since they were born. They were the best of friends. He killed him. He ended everything that my dad had worked for.
"Scarlett answer me!" Jack looked at me again. He definitely cared. The bus stopped. This was my chance to get out of telling him.
" Oh look the bus stopped." I grabbed my bag and rushed off the bus. I didn't look back. I fast walked until I felt someone grab my arm. I turn around to see him staring at me. " I'm not letting you go until you tell me."
" Please just let me go."
"No not until you tell me what made you cry when you were zoning out."
" I promise I will. I can't tell you right here. We have to go somewhere no will see us. Just follow me."
" Okay. " His grip loosened on me but he didn't let me go. I walked onto the field knowing no one had P.E until 3rd period. We sat on the bleachers and he said, " Okay we're alone now tell me."
" Okay this is going to be really hard to say. Um my dad was shot four years ago. He was walking down the street and he got shot. When I was taken to see him he was barely holding on. He gave me my locket that had our picture. And the last thing he told me was I love you. Then he was gone forever. " I could feel the tears starting to come. I could barely speak it hurt so bad to say. He sat there for a minute and looked down at his feet.
" Scarlett I'm so sorry. I can't even begin to imagine what it feels like to live without him. I can't even explain how sorry I am." He leaned towards me and hugged me tightly, I cried on his shoulder. He didn't let go he just let me sit there and cry. I cried for a good ten minutes. It was nice to be able to let it all out.
I let go and looked at him. He wiped a tear off my face."I miss him so much. His anniversary of his death is coming up soon. It just has been really hard. And the court decided to release the man who shot him. On the fifth year of his death."
" I really don't know what to say. I'm here for you. That probably sounds weird cause we just met but I am. You can always have my shoulder to cry on."
I wiped the tears off my face. I didn't really know what to say to him. He sincerely cares. My mother doesn't even care this much about how about what I'm doing. I just met him like two days ago and he knows about my dad and has seen me cry. "Thank you so much Jack. I'm really glad you cared enough to force me to tell you what I was feeling. My mom doesn't even pay that much attention."
" You're welcome. I know what it feels like to feel alone and it sucks. I'll do anything to make sure you don't feel that way anymore." I wondered what he meant by that. He didn't know I cut.
"How'd you know I felt alone?"
" I could see it in your eyes. Most people will just look at a person's smile and assume they're happy. But in reality they're really not. I could see that you are in so much more pain than you would ever let anyone see. You are yearning for someone to love and care about you."
"How could you tell that much by just looking in my eyes. You would have to be extremely observant."
" That's how I see my own eyes. And you are the first person that I saw the same kind of pain in my eyes. That's why I forced you to tell me." This boy is perfect. I think I may love him. But what about Hailey?